Ok, I admit that I've been bad. I haven't updated in a really long time, but I haven't really felt like writing. It's not because things are bad really. In fact, in my years of blogging, I tend to write more when things are bad. So don't worry my pretties...things are swell.
I promise I'll be back when I feel like writing again. I'll be back.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Monday, May 21, 2007
05-21-07
I haven't really written much about how I feel about CP. He really represents the last thing I was looking for, and perhaps it really is better that way. Were I left to wait until I actually felt ready/prepared/open to date somebody, I’d probably be a very old, very bitter man.
I’m not very good at defining relationships, and that’s been a sticking point for me in the past. In previous relationships where the term boyfriend was used, there were an intricate series of tiny steps that led to the title. However, I’ve come to the realization over the past several months that I tend to overanalyze the joy out of casually dating someone. This part of dating, the initial trial period, is the good part. It’s supposed to be heady and impetuous and magical, and my tendency is to question what the fuck it all means. And sometimes, what it means is that you’re just supposed to learn about the other guy and have fun in the process.
I keep reminding myself of this.
In other news, I just learned today the word blog is actually a shortened form of web log. Did everyone know this but me?
I’m not very good at defining relationships, and that’s been a sticking point for me in the past. In previous relationships where the term boyfriend was used, there were an intricate series of tiny steps that led to the title. However, I’ve come to the realization over the past several months that I tend to overanalyze the joy out of casually dating someone. This part of dating, the initial trial period, is the good part. It’s supposed to be heady and impetuous and magical, and my tendency is to question what the fuck it all means. And sometimes, what it means is that you’re just supposed to learn about the other guy and have fun in the process.
I keep reminding myself of this.
In other news, I just learned today the word blog is actually a shortened form of web log. Did everyone know this but me?
Sunday, May 20, 2007
05-20-07
Well, here we are at yet another Sunday evening, and I'm mentally preparing to start the week again. I'm off this Friday, then Monday is Memorial Day, so it's going to be a short week with an equally long weekend. I'm looking forward to it.
I'm finding that I somehow went from mildly dreading spending time with CP to really looking forward to it. Let me clarify: spending time with someone new is really hard for me because that whole "getting to know you" thing is really hard. However we're both a bit dorky, so we balance each other out.
Anywho, CP is coming over tomorrow night to cook dinner with me and to watch the Heroes season finale. I can't wait to see how the season ends.
Did I mention that last night CP brought me chocolates from The Chocolate Bar?
Changing the subject, I realize that I haven't been writing in my blog much these days. I guess I've been letting my internal filters - what few I have left - censor the process. I have yet to determine if that's a good thing.
To tell the truth, I've been trying to just let go and experience some joy. There's a lot of it there, and after 7 years of blogging I can't let go of the feeling that I need to chronicle it somewhere to keep from losing sight of it. If I don't write it down, did it really happen?
If a tree falls down in the woods and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?
Man, I have gone on a major tangent. I do believe it's time to curl up in bed with a good book.
I'm finding that I somehow went from mildly dreading spending time with CP to really looking forward to it. Let me clarify: spending time with someone new is really hard for me because that whole "getting to know you" thing is really hard. However we're both a bit dorky, so we balance each other out.
Anywho, CP is coming over tomorrow night to cook dinner with me and to watch the Heroes season finale. I can't wait to see how the season ends.
Did I mention that last night CP brought me chocolates from The Chocolate Bar?
Changing the subject, I realize that I haven't been writing in my blog much these days. I guess I've been letting my internal filters - what few I have left - censor the process. I have yet to determine if that's a good thing.
To tell the truth, I've been trying to just let go and experience some joy. There's a lot of it there, and after 7 years of blogging I can't let go of the feeling that I need to chronicle it somewhere to keep from losing sight of it. If I don't write it down, did it really happen?
If a tree falls down in the woods and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?
Man, I have gone on a major tangent. I do believe it's time to curl up in bed with a good book.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
05-19-07
Ok, I went with CP last night to see Spider Man 3, and I was disappernted. There was so many storyline going on that I couldn't keep up. Then we came back to my aperntment and hung out a while. I was in bed by 11:30.
Tonight CP is coming over and we're going to watch a documentary called Gates of Heaven that I've wanted to watch for ages. I also think we're going to play Scrabble.
In the meantime, I can't stop watching this:
S-S-S-S-Samantha Fox! She totally needs to make a comeback.
Tonight CP is coming over and we're going to watch a documentary called Gates of Heaven that I've wanted to watch for ages. I also think we're going to play Scrabble.
In the meantime, I can't stop watching this:
S-S-S-S-Samantha Fox! She totally needs to make a comeback.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
05-17-07
Oh blogging...how I love ye.
I love recording my thoughts for the whole world to see.
But wait, I haven't blogged in 4 whole days!
Cuz instead I've been sitting on the couch with my knitting and some Lays.
I say that in jest...it was really takeout Chinese. Last night CP came over and we got takeout from Dragon Bowl and then watched Grey Gardens. I loved it. As my friend Scott pointed out, the scene where the mother is boiling corn on a hot plate in her bedroom is priceless. "He always complements me on my corn..."
Awesome.
I just heard on TV there's a drag queen called Suppositori Spelling. That made my night.
I love recording my thoughts for the whole world to see.
But wait, I haven't blogged in 4 whole days!
Cuz instead I've been sitting on the couch with my knitting and some Lays.
I say that in jest...it was really takeout Chinese. Last night CP came over and we got takeout from Dragon Bowl and then watched Grey Gardens. I loved it. As my friend Scott pointed out, the scene where the mother is boiling corn on a hot plate in her bedroom is priceless. "He always complements me on my corn..."
Awesome.
I just heard on TV there's a drag queen called Suppositori Spelling. That made my night.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
05-13-07
Where did the weekend go? It's already time to go to bed and start the week. My motivation is that Memorial Day is two weeks away, and not only does Daddy have that day off, but he's taking the Friday before so he can have a super long weekend.
How weird is it talking about yourself in third person?
It's been a good couple of days. My date Friday night with Cutie Pie (CP) went well. Saturday I went to the beach, had dinner with a couple of friends (where I accidentally shot marinara sauce on my friend Scott's new shirt....sorry!), then hung out with some friends. Later in the evening, CP joined us and we ate again.
I don't know if I'm playing hard to get or what, but I haven't even kissed CP after 3 dates. Somehow I got all chaste and shit, and I'm not sure where it came from. Last night when he dropped me off, I hugged him and said "thanks...I had fun!" and ran up the stairs and went to bed. By myself.
Anywho, this is going to be a busy week. I'm going to bed.
P.S. I stopped posting my daily photo here, but I'm still doing the 365 Project and putting them on Flickr. You can see them here.
How weird is it talking about yourself in third person?
It's been a good couple of days. My date Friday night with Cutie Pie (CP) went well. Saturday I went to the beach, had dinner with a couple of friends (where I accidentally shot marinara sauce on my friend Scott's new shirt....sorry!), then hung out with some friends. Later in the evening, CP joined us and we ate again.
I don't know if I'm playing hard to get or what, but I haven't even kissed CP after 3 dates. Somehow I got all chaste and shit, and I'm not sure where it came from. Last night when he dropped me off, I hugged him and said "thanks...I had fun!" and ran up the stairs and went to bed. By myself.
Anywho, this is going to be a busy week. I'm going to bed.
P.S. I stopped posting my daily photo here, but I'm still doing the 365 Project and putting them on Flickr. You can see them here.
Happy Mother's Day
Let's all take a moment to wish Britney a Happy Mother's Day, y'all.
Now that we've gotten that out of the way, let's get on with this.
So what are my plans today? You're precious for asking. Well, in a minute I'm going to go see my mother. She was originally supposed to be out of town today, but she showed back up unexpectedly. Wish me luck.
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